eyes look your last...

I haven't posted in so long!

Basically this summer I am working a bit, going to start summer school soon, drinking a bit too much and spending a little bit too much money. It has been awesome so farrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! Good times going out with Stacey! Hope you are all having friggen great summers!

-kt

So I'm just closing at work! So shy and lazy. I hope no one ever finds out about me going on the computer. Whatever right? OMG TODAY AT WORK WAS INTEEEEENSEEEEEEEE! I came in early, and Shannon was doing cash and someone went to order. She apparently was like "I feel really faint.." and Shannon was like "do you want water or anything??" AND SHE COLLAPSED!! She leaned on the counter and I looked over because I wondered why it was taking her so long to order, and I here BANG and Shannon like "OMG!!!!!" and I was like shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. I picked up the phone and was like "omg I'm calling 911.." she was just lying there and i was positive she was dead, omg. So Shannon "yeah, call" and I did and it took them fucking like 3 rings to answer. Anyway, her friends were freaking out! They were asking me questions on the phone, like her age and if anything like this had ever happened, and I asked her friends and NOTHING. She was at least like 48, same with her friends. They were crying and freaking out and everything. She was consious though. Then they were like "let's get her to stand!" and I was like "I think you should just leave her..." and there was a man there who really knew what he was doing, thank god. He was like "Just leave her..." fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck so I called a bunch of people form them (their kids and stuff) and after 15 mins the ambulence FINALLY got there. I think she'll be fine, but that was soooo scary. Shannon and I almost cried, lol. What makes me mad is that her friends are NURSES and they had absolutely no idea what to do. Well, one of them. Like, I knew more then them and that is not saying much at all! We were talking to the man after and he was like "you girls were so good! i was so glad when you called 911 right after it happened! you did the right thing!" omg I hate situations like that though, sooo scary!

OMG the concert with Chickie was so fun! So surreal seeing Christina. We got so excited, lmao, so shy. I have vertigo though (I don't really, I just like saying that) so I have noooo balance and Chickie had some fun with it, lol. Good times though! I missed that bitch so it was great seeing her! MISS YA GIRL! (L)

Got really drunk last night, good times. I was drunk by 6pm. How embarassing. Definately did some things I regret (nothing really bad though) and shocked myself, hahaha I love it. I'm so bad sometimes..LOOOOOOOVE ITTTTTTTTTT.

-kt

Omg...perfect hott guy..not so fucking perfect! I definitely added him to facebook, and he definitely has a gf. I have to stop hooking up with guys w/ gfs, this is the third one. shiiiiiiiiiiiit, what a dick though! Honestly! Poor girl! He messaged me saying that I should meet up with him at this place he goes to in ptbo a lot, and i was like "maybe if you didn't have a FUCKING GF!!! I think i'm going to message her and tell her about this." Hahahaha I hope he's shitting his pants. I think I may honestly message her. I dunno, that would really suck for her to find out like that but she does deserve to know and it's better now than before it's too late right? Should I message her??

-kt

fuckkkkkkkk it's been sooooo long since i've posted!!!

Last night was awesome. Danielle, Christa, Kim and I got pretty hammered and went out. Okay so there is this old guy that comes into Hasselton's (where I work..where I am right now..so shy) allllllllllll the time, and he TALKS AND TALKS AND TALKS about NOTHING and goes on for hours. He's really nice though, just annoying. So he was telling me all about his son. I was on my laptop trying to work on my essay, and he was like "you're probably just on facebook aren't you!?" and I was like "HOW DO YOU KNOW ABOUT FACEBOOK!?!?!?" so he said that his son has it and I should add him. So i did, lol. He told me to message him and he told me everything to say, I was like "hey, your dad wants me to tell you blah blah blah." THEN he told me to call him on his cellphone, lmao. His son was like "omfg...." so embassed. Poor guy. Apparently his dad tries to set him up with girls all the time. So on the way to the trash I see this guy and i was like "OMG IT'S THE OLD MAN'S SON!!!" so I was a bit drunk and I was like "hey! i know your dad!!" and all his friend's just burst out laughing. They followed us to the trash and I fell in love with one of his friends. Nicest guy..SOOOOOO HOTTTTTTTTTT. Did I mention how hott he is?? I can honestly say this, he is the best kisser I've ever had. Honest to fucking GOD. I was literally in heaven. He's so nice and hiarious too. But he lives in Ottawa of course, where else right? So tragic. OMG..he's so tall too, jesusssssssssssssssssssssss. Why god why??!! Like, why can't he live in ptbo? Ughhhhhhhhh so ironic. So sad.

So I might fail pysch. I called my parents a couple of days ago in the library and kind of told them and my dad was being such an ass, then my mom came on the phone and I just burst into tears in the middle of the library, lol don't know where that came from! So shy. But yeah, she was just adding on to my stresses, like "come end of august you are QUITTING YOUR JOB..etc etc etc" UUUUUGHHH, all I want is a 50%. Please God, if you are listening, just give me a 50%. I'll never sin again (maybe only a couple of times). Shit eh? Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.

-kt

soo I haven't posted in a while!! Things are going alright. My marks are slipping a bit because of my job and lack of motivation but what can you do right? I actually really like my job! I'm closing right now, so shy. It's stressful sometimes though. Like when there is a huge line-up and I'm the only one working. Hate that. Buuuut there is this guy that works in mr.sub which is right across the street, and he's served me there, and he comes in here all the time so I serve him. He came in tonight..I've had a bit of a crush on him for a while and today he asked me if I had facebook so that he could add me. Sooooooo shy, lol. Oh and also there is a guy from my seminars who's hott and I also sort of like, and I definately hooked up with him. It's great because he's hott and I'm attracted to him, but it's also terrible because I am in his seminars..which were SO awkward this week, lol. But oh well, right? I don't know what type of guy he is though..he seems nice but his friends look like assholes soooo I think all we'll ever be is make-out buddies which I'm cool with! The guy that comes into here seems sweet though. So with that being said, I am completely over Ryan lol. I saw him today and he waved, we're civil I guess but meh, whatever. I'm sorry I only ever talk about boys. So sorry!

Soooo tomorrow is st.patty's day!! Omggggggggggggggggg I am going to get fucking HAMMERED AND Y'ALL SHOULD TOO! Seriously though it's going to be bad. Well hopefully it will be good! I'm sorry I only ever talk about boys and drinking.

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyzzzzzzzzzzz i should go finish all of my duties. Love ya!

-kt

Soo I got a job. I'M SORRY CHICKIE!!! I'm working at Hasseltons now, it's a coffee shop! My friend Shannon works there and she pretty much got me the job. Honestly though, I want to come back to toronto for friends, but I CAN'T live four months with my parents, no joke. I love them..but it's too much. I hate going 8 months with complete freedom to "what are you doing, who will be there, why would you want to go now?! It's such an inconvenience for us!" (My mom mostly). I hate that shit. Like, even when I say I'm going to Kelsey's in like, 5 days, she'll be like "ohhhhhhhhhhh, :(!!! I was going to make a nice dinner that night!!! How are you getting there?!!? Who's going?! Ugh, well how are you going to get back?!? Are you sure you even want to go!?" Like honestly stfu. STFU. She got mad that time I had two coolers at Nodwells because I smelt like alcahol. I can't live a normal, teenage life there! Plus I'd have to work at stage west and I reeeeally don't like the people there, for the most part. And most of the time I'm just sitting at home bored. I'll still come back on weekends a lot! UGH I phoned my parents last week and they pissed me off. My mom has been telling me to apply for jobs over and over, and I told her that I got an interview and she was like "HOW ARE YOU GOING TO MANAGE SCHOOL AND A JOB AT THE SAME TIME?!?!" What the fuck do you want?!?! She's like "tell them you can't start until May!!" You can't really say that to businesses that are hiring you..you take what you can get. Ughhhh. My dad was pissed too. I sent him my resume to look over/edit, and he usually makes a ton of changes to my resumes/essays, but he replied and was just like "it looks fine." He wants me to come home during the summer, and I actually feel bad because I think he really does want me home, but for my mom it's more of a control thing. I don't think my dad would really care if I had a couple of drinks once a week. This is why my sister never came home during the summer either!

Ommmmmmmmmmmg I saw him in the library today....so hott man. OH we made out in a booth in the library last week! He brought bristol board and we covered up the window with the bristol board and our bags, and we made out. We didn't make out today, just chilled and kissed a few times. Jesus Christ Mother Mary. I just love being around him or something. Fuck man.

Workload is shitttt right now, fucccccckkkkkkk. I have 2 essays (to start and finish) due early next week. A presentation early next week. 3 quizzes early next week. And yeah I think that's it..but it's still a lot! I'm working for 2 hours tomorrow, and 2 hours sunday, and going to his house sunday night. I'd say no to going to his house but I may not see him until after reading week..and I couldn't say no to going to his house. I can't wait until Sundayyyyy!

I LOVE YOU CHICKIE DON'T BE MAD AT ME!!! <3333333

ffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccckkkkkkkkk i want him so bad!!

Just in the library right now talking to Chickieeeee!!! I should be reading but I'm just not motivated. The only thing I'm motivated to do these days is go to the gym, which I have been for the past three weeks! Jess and I go almost everyday now. I hate it when people walk by in the library looking for a computer and give me a rude, judgmental look because I have facebook and MSN up. Whatever, ok? If you were on this computer you'd be doing the same thing.

I'm going to Ryan's tonightttt! He was drunk on MSN last night and he was like "why are you so nice to me? Why are you so cute?" etc..heehee. I'm excited! Just looking at pics of him gets me excited. Man on man. I actually miss him or something.

Awwwww last night one of my friends broke up with her bf of two years and she was a MESSSSS. She got drunk by herself and came on MSN and was saying all this shit, so we went and got her at her house and brought her back here. She took pills and drank :S:S:S. I hope she'll be okay, I feel so bad for her.

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyz i'm going to end this now!!! I'll post and say how my night went lol.

-kt

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH sooo I was convinced that he didn't like me anymore. I saw him on the bridge and he was kind of cool/stand-offish or something, so I just went to the library and got my book out and almost started crying. I'm dramatic sometimes but I really like him! And he used to message me on facebook like, right on time and he went a few days without messaging me and even his messages were different or something. Today on msn he mentioned that he was going to the beer store and was like "you should come..lol jk" so I was like "hm....lol" and it went on from there, and he was like "you should just come over and watch movies and we can make out!" (the fuck is with guys saying that to me...him and Chris). So I was like "ok!" So that's what we did! It wasn't awkward at all, and he's funny..we watched Alpha Dog (worst movie ever but good because it was so bad?) and Mean Girls lol. I just..OMGGGG. Like..HFDLKFJLSDK. He jokes around a lot, and I pretend to get mad, so he'll start kissing me and be like "still mad?" GAHHH and I'll be like "yup.." so he'll do it more and LJFDSLKFJDSLKFJSDLK. Shit sorry this is personal I guess. But he is an amazing kisser annnnddd yup pretty much in love! I have a feeling if I do go out with him it will take a LONG ass time, but I really don't care..I dont' want to go out with him just yet. Not for like, a month or two or something. but jdklfajsdklfjsdklfdskl!!!!!!!

-kt

We went for the walk! It was the fucking coldest shit I've ever experienced. We couldn't really enjoy it because it was honestly so cold. So we came back to my appartment and I was embarassed because it is a fucking MESSSSSSSSSSSSS. Oh well. We watched corner gas and Ellen and Ellen was sooo funny and I was lmaoing but he didn't seem to find it that funny! Oh well. We made out periodically. It was good times! I dunno if he likes me though. This is the first time he's seen me sober so I dunno :S. He's walking home now and I wanted him to take a taxi so bad but he wouldn't.

-kt